their room with the idea of trying on a few of the younger womans' things although I had never before attempted it. I managed a beautiful pair of silk panties a bra and also a matching slip and was standing in the middle of the room admiring myself in a full length mirror when all of a sudden the mother of the girl whose clothes I was wearing entered the room. She had come home from work unexpectdly and was greatly surprised whe she saw me standing there. I must have looked ridculus because instead of being mad all she did was laugh. I was somewhat embarassed at my predicament and begged her not to mention this to my mother. She said she would not, however after I left the dinner table that night I heard her jokingly tell my mother about the whole thing. to explain.

However, it was never brought up to me

After

My life moved along smoothly after this. mother remarried which I greatly resented, my easy going life abruptly changed. The man she married was a real Ceasar. I was punished severely everytime I stepped out of line. By severely I mean that I was made to strip down to bare skin and was literally beaten with switches until many times my bottom and the backs of my legs and back actually bled. This occured as much as once and sometimes twice a week until I reached the age of twelve. Although I hated my step father and was greatly afraid of him, I do not consider him a cause of my transvestism. However, I believe the great fear I had of him caused me to wish and pray that I would become a girl as an escape from him. Surely he would not punish a girl so severely, I would tell myself.

For some reason, I never understood, my stepfather stopped whipping me when I was around twelve years old. My dislike for him, however, never stopped. Although, today, I do not hate him anymore, I only feel pity for him and my mother for leading a miserable life with him also. I feel the only reason she did not get a divorce was because he did offer her security through his insurance business.

As I grew older my desire to dress seem to grow also. Outwardly, in appearance and physique I was just another average boy. Because of my size, 6'4" I was

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